Saturday, April 19, 2008

gifts and miracles.

WHY must I wake up with the sunrise every morning this week?!?
I am NOT a morning person. I don't even marvel at the sunrise (unless it happens to be over a body of water).But, being awake very early in the morning has given me a lot of quiet time, which I also need very much.

After a bridal shower this morning and going shopping for 5-year olds boys birthday presents this afternoon, I was completely wiped out. Running on just 4 hours of sleep will do that to you.

When I confirmed Hannah's conception, I immediately bought a baby item for the new life growing inside me (it was a baby bonnet). I didn't really get to do that with my last 3 pregnancies; I didn't have much time with them.
This time, I want it to be different. So today I bought a set of two pairs of little tiny baby gloves (I figured a December baby could certainly use gloves!). They have white and yellow stars on them. They're unisex, and they will match most of the newborn clothes that we already have.

I want this little tiny being to be OKAY! I've only known of his/her existence for about 48 hours, but I already love this baby beyond measure.

Right now I am cautiously wishing for the best, but also trying to mentally and emotionally cushion myself in case something does go wrong. I'm only 4 1/2 weeks pregnant; only God knows what will happen in the days ahead.

1 comment:

GlitterNGlitz said...

I am so happy for you I will pray big time for you :D..YAY we are pregnant together again :D..I was pregnant with you with your last mc but I miscarried mine too..Btw yeah it was 3 years off ttc with Meredith, but it was very close to 4 years like 3 years and 7 months..So I understand being obsessive about it TRUST ME..I'm so happy for you keep updating!!