Thursday, October 1, 2009

Can't believe that it's October now. It's gonna take some getting used to, writing "10" on the dates for everything.

Finances are not getting any better. Mike & I had a very long discussion about money today. If you know me well, you probably know that I don't like money: don't like talking about it, handling it, planning for it, budgeting, any of that. But, it must be done. At least we have a plan, and we have goals, and we're trying to get rid of debts. By next summer we should see some dramatic improvements.

After all that talking, Mike, Hannah, Aliah and I all ended up falling asleep for an hour (not all in the same bed though)! That was a rare treat. I can't remember the last time Hannah voluntarily went to sleep in the middle of the day!

I also had a deep conversation with a friend today, about why bad things happen to good people. It can be so hard to watch someone suffer or die, or see terrible things happen for an unknown cause. I know that God is in control of all things, but every day I have to re-surrender (is that a real word?) certain parts of my life, and give them back up to Him. Sometimes I really struggle with that. Especially when it comes to my children.

What are you struggling with this week?


Another Muggle said...

I hope things start to look up for you both. You certainly deserve it.

My stepsister gave birth to a little baby boy and he has three holes in his heart :(

karmapearl said...

I feel your pain with the finances. My husband's work has been painfully slow (he's a brick mason) and we're struggling. Thankfully, he worked one day this week and that's enough to float us until I get paid again on the 16th.

This economy is just terrible :(

Lisa said...

Anxiety... no reason for it... just get like that sometimes.

I worry about stupid little things like being late to work, or not be prepared for lesson at school, or thinking too much about what people think of me. These little things add up to a BIG little thing. In the grand scheme of things, it seems really stupid. Why do I worry? It's dumb.

You know what? You gotta tell yourself the truth:

1. God promises to use ALL things for our good and for His glory. It may not FEEL that way, but that is what His Word says... tell yourself that promise!

2. God is good. "Taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in him." Psalm 34:8

3. God provides for his children. It seems like a time of darkness, I know. But, look how He meets your needs each day.

4. There is no such thing as a good person. We are all sinners desperate for a Savior. Each day is a gift of mercy and grace from a loving God who provided you a way to relate to Himself.

5. Worrying doesn't help AT ALL. We need to live in the moment and trust God for right now. As we do, we make it through... one step at a time. Take a small step of faith today and watch to see how God meets you with grace to do what He is calling you to do.

I tell myself these things often. I still struggle... but God is always faithful!

Praying for you today,

Vanilla Creme Puff said...

I hope everything can go as planned with your finances.. I know just how tough that is. Mike an I get a good schedule going with things, and then something always happen. This week, its $ as well. His work van was towed this morning and thats 200 bucks we didnt have thats going to end up coming out of Mikeys birthday money or were going to have to push back bills we just got caught back up on. Oh well.